February 2011
6 posts
Transparency
Oh you beautiful distraction.
Filling my head with lies
I thought my eyes were open,
A clever deception in code
I could barely comprehend
How deeply it goes
How much it means
These muffled screams
Nothing left to hold on to
Grasping at dead air between us
It’s the only thing I have left
A beautiful cicatrix forms over the wound
inflicted as I wept.
To touch a woman
He knows how to touch a woman, make her ache with desire.
He knows how to manipulate her into orgasmic smiles.
He knows when he gets mad he can
Shove her against the wall grab her by the arm
Exert control so the bruises are hidden well
And Yell! Yell! Yell! Yell!
He knows how to give pleasure and inflict terrible pain
And with these he controls her
Along with cutting down her self-esteem
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Sitting alone once again
of course, in bed
Insomnia drains my common sense
Burning down hopes with cigarette smoke
It’s just another substance too harsh
Akin to the dissapointments
Stealing my soul
Colorlessly they float away
The Big Comedown
Hiding away in the bedroom, I try to make sense of what happened. My pillow, wet with tears, just sits there. It offers no comfort.
I lost my love today.
Suddenly, unexpectedly. He just let me go and now everything is shattered. What I thought I knew is now in question. I woke up from pleasant dreams only to have a nightmare waiting for me.
I did something wrong, but I don’t know what it was....